Single or Married?

One of my favourite song from Penny Tai 单身潜逃, the lyric of the song reflect my feeling very closely.

I enjoy my current life. I am a person who like freedom, and do not like the feeling of being control by someone else. Being a single, I can choose whatever life I want to live.

I'm not a anti marriage type of person. I still believe the happiness of getting married. For a girl, is good to have someone that you can cry on his shoulder if you are upset, someone that can hold you tight and hug you if you need it, someone that really care for you, someone that can go with you through thick and thin etc.

I want to get married, I want to have my own children. But if I cannot find a suitable and reliable guy, I rather being single.

Different World

I watched a movie last Friday. It was a movie took couple of years ago. The story is very simple, it talks about love.

The story itself didn't get my interest, but there is a dialog which attract my attention. The leading actor in the movie said to the leading actress "We are from different worlds, so there is no way we can be together" The leading actress said "Two people came from two different world, and if they are together, means both of them in fact have a new world".

I personally think this is very meaningful. In our life, when choosing our life partner especially, most of us tend to look for someone who are similar with us, i.e. come from same world. Then when we found him/her, we will have to live the same way like we used to live in. I agreed with the new world concept. I think the theory similar with the 1+1=3 theory. It is a result from a synergy effect. So, open up your heart and mind for all kind of possibilities.

Life is full with hope

I always tell my friends, I like babies because I see life is full with hope when I see babies.

My niece, Alyssa is the first grand child of my parents. She is now 6 months plus old. Lots of hair, cute smile, fair skin, innocent, happy baby.....

While everyone struggling with work issues, money, loan, bills, relationship problems...everything is just too complicated. We need some simple and innocent life and while looking and playing with babies, we are able to forget all of the problems that we faced. Just a simple smile from them, just a hug from them, just a kiss from them...even by looking at them, your heart gets melted.

Ever thinking, we borned to this world as an empty glass. Everyday, we put some liquid in the glass. The glass keep filling with thoughts, ideas, happy moments, desires, problems....good or bad, we still need to face them one by one. Some people will choose to face with positive view while some people will face them with worries. And when we try to keep everything to our own, the glass is full. Then, we are hunger of new things as the glass is already full. So, if you need something new to come to you, pour the existing liquid in your own glass. Be positive and keep moving.

New life, new hope. Life is great if we have hope(s).

Fight for...??

There are over thousand people work in my company, and every year everyone must go through the performance appraisal. Each year, 10% of us will group under a separate group whereby there is no increment as your performance is not so good compared with others. (although you meet the expectation on your job scope)

The fighting story begins....everyone fight for projects. Those who are happy with what they have are urge to change their working mindset. It's makes everyone working life hectic.

Life is never easy, and I do not wish to make my life even harder. I am looking for a simple life but working in this company do not permit me to do that. I would like to see progress on me day by day. But definitely, I do not want to fight with others. The way they conduct meeting also like in a war room. Scary right?

Fortunately, I still can be myself in my company. I can see there are rooms for me to improve further. Although sometimes I wonder how long I can stand. At my age, I still can stand the stress level. I believe, the tough gets going even things get tougher.

So, I need to be tougher.

When is your turn?

Does this question sounds familiar? For those who are still single, I think it is. When your friends get married one by one, people around you will ask "hey, when is your turn?"

Well, marriage is a matter between you and your partner. But, it's seems like we need to report to others that when we are getting married. For those who are yet to be attached to anyone, like me, what am I suppose to say?

Recently, my sister and her boy friend urge me to get married. This has make me very stress. I know what I want and I haven't found him. I do not want to get married just for the sake of getting married. Marriage should be something which will come to us naturally when relationship between you and your partner are mature enough and both parties are willing to love each other with any condition.

Parents, friends, relatives out there: please do not ask people this question again especially to those who are still single. I believe, when it's the time, he/she will inform you.

My colleagues...my friends

Most of my friends claimed that they are unable to be friend with their colleagues. They said"They are just my colleagues...not friends...and it's impossible to be friends." Some of them claimed that they need to "wear mask" in their working place, they can't be their true self.
What has happen to this society? With the advance technologies surrounded us, the human relationship is not getting stronger but in fact...it is worsen. Too lazy? too shy? scared of being cheated?
I feel lucky that I can be myself in my working place. I met very great colleagues here and they are now all in my friends list. We share common interest, we care for each other, we are fun loving, we are honest...we try to work hard (not yet?), play hard (really :p).
We make fun of each other in work place, and we never get angry because of that. Our office always full with laughter (mine one especially) and this keep me move on although sometimes I am stressed with my jobs.
I look for real friendship and I make some very good friendship here.
Friends, cherish to our friendship and I LOVE YOU GUYS.

White Water Rafting ~ 26 & 27 Jul 2008

Me and a group of friends went for white water rafting at Sungai Sedim, Kulim on 26th Jul 08. It was the fisrt ever water rafting for me.
If you were to ask me to describe the trip, I would say only 3 words: IT WAS FUN!
We departed from Penang Island at around 7 something in Jul 26 morning after breakfast. Reached there at about 10. We started the rafting at 10:30 after some water confidence testing.
The white water rafting has five level. Level 5 is the toughest one and they call it Xtreme. We started with the level 5 on the first day. We were 5 in a boat - they call it raft. As the ideal number of people in a raft is 4, we ended up with one person sitting in the middle of the raft and became the backup rafter. We stucked for quite a number of times because the skipper said our raft is too heavy as too many people. But we managed to go through the hurdles after some bumping, forward, backward, etc. Our raft capsized for two times. The first time when it was capsized, my spec out of my eyes a bit but luckily managed to adjust it back. But I was not that lucky for the second time. My spec broke into two pieces after a big hit. I was almost drowning when the raft capsized, I told myself I must rescue myself as I still have my parents, my family, my friends,....and there are lots of things I haven't done and experience. I told myself to calm down, practice yoga breathing and managed to do that finally. Thanks god. :) Everyone are fine. :) I was almost blind after the second capsized as my power is 500 something and I cannot see thing clearly if I didn't wear spec. We took about 4 and a half hours to finish the hardest level.
Everyone were thinking not to continue to raft the second day, i.e. level 1 to level 4. Luckily the skipper managed to build the confidence level of everyone after some conversation. To me, the confidence came back after the conversation. But it lost again the next day due to 2 major reasons:
1. I can't see clearly without my spec
2. my period came the second day
So at last, I decided not to raft the second day. But then luckily the skippers there allow us (who are not raft) to follow the landrover along the journey so that we can see how our friends raft and can take their pictures.
Things to remember:
1. never panic
2. stay calm
3. ALWAYS rescue yourself (but don't worry, the skippers are always there to rescus you. But you, yourself have to rescue your own. Meaning trust yourself you can rescue yourself and others can rescue you)
4. listen to the skipper's instruction
5. have good teamwork among the rafters
6. last but not least, HAVE FUN.